Very wise advice and suggestions, Carnation. And, as you know, sometimes it works - sometimes it doesn't. All we can do is keep on trying, right?
I'm also finding, or at least I think it's true, that anticipatory anxiety can start WELL in advance of the event, and can actually disguise itself and stay out of the limelight, but be working it's poison behind the scenes. My daughter and her husband moved across country for his job 7 years ago, and I only visited once because of my anxiety. but, two years ago she gave me my first grandchild, and that changed the whole picture. I started sucking it up and going out there every 3-4 months. I want the child to know it's grandmother! 5 months ago she had her second child, so obviously I've become a frequent flyer.
I hate every part of it. I hate the commute to the airport, I hate the LONG flight, I hate the Ubering and I'm not thrilled with staying at my daughter's house.... it's not my comfort zone, and as has been mentioned earlier, sometimes we're not even comfortable around our own children, let alone their spouse. And then, when that exhausting visit is over, I've got the LONG flight back again. So basically, yes, I love seeing them but it really takes a toll, physically and mentally.
Sorry, I got side-tracked. I started noticing that every time the trip started approaching (2-3 weeks before I was to go) I would start feeling physically ill. And I would notice some anxiety symptoms creeping up, but I really never connected them to the trip because it was still weeks away. I'm now thinking that it IS the trip, and that anticipatory anxiety starts below the surface well in advance. How cruel is that? It would seem more fair if we could just be apprehensive for say, one week before. But I guess anxiety doesn't follow any guidelines or rules. So not only is the trip exhausting, so are the weeks leading up to it. And we won't even talk about how tired I am when I finally get back!
Lastly on this topic, I have been torn between continuing to suck it up and go out there, or starting to "be kind to myself" and not go as often. My GP is of the theory that if it's making me uncomfortable, I should just say "no" and not go. On the other hand, I feel like we shouldn't avoid things just because they challenge us. And here's the part that complicates it: my daughter's husband travels a lot for work, so a few times a year she is all alone with two dogs and two young children. She always asks that I come keep her company during those times and help her, and that's when I want to be there for her. I would have such a hard time saying "no" when my child needs me, but as my doctor says, she is the one that chose to move, she is an adult, and she will find other ways to get along without you there.
So, your thoughts on this? Oh, by the way, I am going out there March 13th but only staying for 4 days - it's the 2 year old's birthday party and my daughter really wants me there since I missed last year. This one will be a little less stressful because it's a shorter visit, but a little MORE stressful because her hubby will be there,and I really enjoy our visits when it's just us girls.
Sue