I feel much better today after resting yesterday.
When anxiety is more apparent and you can't master up the energy to do anything, a rest is sometimes all you need to feel a bit better.
So, today I walked a whole 2 miles!
This is amazing considering I could barely get around the house 3 months ago.
On a good day, I want to get everything done, which is obviously the wrong thing to do, but you know when you are bad, everything gets neglected.
I've got my acid reflux back again and it woke me in the middle of the night.
Burning throat and funny taste in mouth. I'd done so well with my diet and it seemed to settle, but I stupidly had a whole bar of chocolate last night in a moment of weakness and paid the price later. Damn. Why does it have to be chocolate? Why can't it be Brussels or broccoli? I never thought in a million years that chocolate would make me ill. I know it was that, because the rest of the food I had eaten that day was so boring. Chicken, cauliflower, carrots, potatoes, tuna sandwich and toast.
When I look back at what I used to eat and not too long ago.
McDonalds, Snickers, Kentucky Chicken, Twix Bars, Cream Cakes, Mars Bars, Fry-ups, Chinese food, Pizzas, Sticky Toffee Pudding...........
And now I can't eat one small measly bar of chocolate!
Despite that , I took myself off to play piano in a Care Home today.
No, I'm not that good, but I have been learning some classical pieces all by myself and actually played one of them today in public! From memory too.
I started this at the beginning of my relapse. I wanted to keep my mind occupied and learn something new. (The jigsaws were doing my eyes in).
It's good for the brain. It's good for your control. And it's good for your soul.
Well I did it and was quite chuffed with myself.
Ok, I did have piano lessons when I was about 8, but never took it any further.
I'm talking a long time ago and it was very short lived.
Never think you can't do something. If the 'Will' is there you can do almost anything you want.
That's my message for today. Learn something new. Something you really want to do.
Yes, you might have to take anxiety with you, but it can sit there and take a back seat for a change. You are the one in charge and while you rejuvenate your brain, anxiety can sulk in the corner.
You see, anxiety doesn't like being ignored. It wants you to worry and pay attention to it. It's very attention seeking and it might even try to distract you from what you are doing. Think of it as a naughty child. You are the parent so you need to take charge!.
Until next time............