Hi everyone. Im new to this forum. Im here to see refuge from my daily paranoia and hopefully share some toughs with people who are probably having the same problem as me. I hope you take your time to read through what im going through and share your experience as well. Please i beg you guys, the post will be long but please read it. I really dont have anyone to share my problems with except you guys, not even my family members.
First off,
Im 23 year old, healthy young chap. Height 1.7 and weights around 67-69
Recently i have been extremely paranoid about having colon c**** (im afraid to even mention the full word thats hows how scared i am)
Here are the things i started to experience
1) Weight Loss. Healthy or Disease? I have no idea. Maybe you decide.
- I used to lead a normal life. Having drinking party almost everyday, care free and whatever but recently many of my friends notice i lost some weight. When i knew some of my new friends, i was quite puffy and bloated due to excessive alcohol and unhealthy diet, no exercise whatsoever. 3 years back while i was still in the fire department, i weight 68-70 too. After my service was completed (2 years compulsory) i became lazy and unhealthy. 3 Years back i was diagnosed with Hapetitis B , during that check up my weight was 75KG (of fats and water retention not muscle mass), for my height, my BMI is considered obese. During that point of time i looked damn bloated, cloth that i use to look sexy in made me look like a slob, all my old friends who knew me as a fit and lean guy with a nice body started saying that im fat. So having Hapetitis B, i totally stopped alcohol for months until my liver fully recovered. Once im complete ok, i rarely drink anymore. Maybe once a week, a few cans of beer, thats all. I also started weight lifting and practicing good diet. Once for 2-3 week i was on full protein diet, only meat and little carb. So now i notice my weight was back to 68/67kg. Cloth that i was too tight for me fits perfectly now. But still, loosing that much of weight kinda bothers me. during that period, i did not notice my bowel habbits, my stool etc. Only now when i started reading up about colon C****, i started to be more conscious about little symptoms. I always tell myself not to be paranoid because there are 101 illness that could lead to weight loss, heck even a simple flu!
So recently..
I notice changes in my bowel habits or is it something normal that ive been having for the past 20 years of my life that i just cant be bothered to notice and since im more self conscious now, i notice them?
A month ago ago i started noticing symptoms of IBS such as
- Frequent diarrhea and feeling to take a dump right after eating
- Inability to empty my bowel completely. Like every time i take a dump, i will feel like doing it again in 1 hour. Then for the rest of the day the feeling goes on but the stoll just wouldnt come out.
- No blood, no constipation or whatsoever
So after reading online, it shows symptoms of IBS and also Colon C****
Then i began noticing appetite loss but just for a little while, maybe a few days. Possibly because im feeling depressed and paranoid, another reason could be that ive been eating at the same cook house for the past 4 years of my current career and everytime i think of the same food, i feel sick. Asian food are not that great and eating the same "chicken rice" for the next 4 years, who wouldnt feel like puking when thinking of it? So i wanted to test my appetite. If my loss of appetite were caused by the terminal illness, u wouldnt be able to eat at all right? So i started ordering pizza and expensive restaurant foods that provides delivery. If i really had no appetite, i wouldnt eat them but surprisingly, i could eat as much as my stomach can hold because the food was tasty. As of today, theres totally no problem with my appetite at all. Im eating a whole pizza while typing this thread now, and still feeling hungry!
So after thinking i had IBS, i started eating healthy, more fruits etc and all those symptoms goes away. I no longer feel like my bowel are not empty. I take a good dump every morning without fail after waking up. I eat well etc.
SCARY PART TODAY
When i took a dump, i notice some red spot on my stool. My stool itself is light brown in texture, normal size (like a banana shape), two of them and i notice the kind of tiny red spot like a tiny bit of tomato. I used as stick to try and poke it, if it was blood, it would smear and dissolve but apparently that "red bit" looks solid. The rest of my stool is absolutely normal
I totally freaked out and made an appointment with a gastrologist in 2 days.
I just hope im paranoid and nothing sinister is happening.