Please can someone help me to get some objectivity.
Firstly, I will say that I am now getting CBT for my HA, but have only had an assessment so far. My proper sessions start soon.
At the moment I have an awful fear that I have bulbar onset mnd.
It all started because I kept doing 'spoonerisms'. Not the odd one, it was nearly daily for a while. This led me to panic and research speech issues. Naturally I came across mnd, in particular bulbar onset.
Since then my speech has been a bit off and I am worried I am slurring or not pronouncing words.
My tongue has a dent in the side (not the usual teeth mark dents) which I have never noticed before.
I have found myself coughing and throat clearing a lot, for weeks now.
This all has me panicked but then after doing some reading I found more worrying information. One lady with this disease described how she wakes herself up sometimes with a loud noise. I have started doing this (before this fear). A good few times now I have woken myself up with a loud moan. Another thing is that i get this weird startle in my throat (I have had this since about 2015) where I swallow and it kind of makes me jump because it's like a reflex.
I have also got lots of twitching in my calves.
I have started doing strength exercises and keep looking at my tongue. I know it is rare, but that doesn't mean it can't happen to me.
I have an appointment with a doctor later, but am at my wits end. Has anyone else experienced this?
Sarah