I am struggling, bad. I haven’t been myself in about two weeks. I refuse medicine because I have never had luck with an SSRI. I have klonopin for emergencies but I don’t take it. I’ve been feeling very worthless, detached from myself and without a purpose.
I’ve thought about ending my life but I know I could never bring myself to do it. Just thinking about it I can’t stop crying. I am a nanny and I hate feeling like this around the 2 year old. Also, I go through waves of this around that time of the month.. which is now.
My anxiety and panic has gotten so bad that it has caused this depression. I just don’t feel like myself at all.. I can’t wven explain it. Everything that use to bring me joy feels like a mundane task now. I’m even suppose to get my hair done Friday and already am trying to figure a way out.
I’m just exhausted mentally and physically. Someone please help me find the light at the end of the tunnel.