Basically during mid-late March I was in China. Where I am sure has LOTS of rabies.
I have severe health anxiety.
In the hotel bathroom ceiling was this vent or what not (made of wood/metal).. long story short rats or animals could've been in there although I did not physically see one.
Being the paranoid curious person I am afraid of being watched through a camera in the ceiling, I popped open the "tile" or square piece that gave way into the passageway.
I did this a few times and basically dust/germs, etc... was inhaled or was in contact with because I had cuts on my body and I had canker sore.
I don't even know what to do.
The quote saying that I should not fear death and instead fear NOT LIVING is not even reassuring me right now.
I really do not want to die.