Originally Posted by
Carys
This is a hard question. I guess it depends on what you want to gain from this apology; personal closure is acceptable as a reason providing you end it there if the person wants nothing more to do with you anyway. If you just want to make sure she knows that you regret what you did, and leave it at that, then I can't personally see the harm in you making a written apology. If you were going to do it though, don't expect to hear anything back, don't expect a friendship to be regained, and don't chase it up any further - just do it because you regret the way things finished. You have clearly changed hugely, which is fantastic, and I can tell you feel genuinely upset that the 'past you' said and did certain things. You know, sometimes people when they are terminally ill, decades after something has happened, feel the need to 'put things right', so its an understandable human response to want to 'clear things up'.
I would go along the lines of -
"I know its been a long time, 2 years, and know you will have moved on from the X incident, but at times it still enters my mind. I don't expect a reply, or any acknowledgement, but if you wanted to do so then that's fine also. I just wanted you to know that I entirely regret not making these points to you sooner and I am genuinely very sorry for the X that I did at the time and wanted you to know etc. I don't expect forgiveness, or that what I'm saying is any justification for what happened back then, but I just wanted it known that I have heartfelt guilt at the way I treated you. I have taken steps to change the way I respond to people, and do not behave the way that I do back then. You were a very valuable person to me, and deserved much better than how I behaved.....etc
I won't contact you again any further, unless of course you wanted me to do so."
You get the idea.....don't make it too long or indepth, avoid blow by blow accounts of what happened...and make it clear you won't be stalking them LOL. What you don't want to do is make the other party feel that they owe you a reply, or feel that they should be guilty for NOT accepting your apology. Just make it genuine, concise and without pressure. Remember that sometimes these apologies made after a long time don't go the way you want, it could end up with her responding in a way that makes you more upset, it could open old wounds. So, be ready to accept those outcomes, but know that at least you tried to make amends - and then move on.
Hope this helps ?