Can’t believe I’m anxious over this...

[darklantern]

Hi everyone.

So I have a friend whom I love very much, who is coming to visit me for 10 days. When she first booked the trip, I remember feeling surprised that she was going to be here for so long, but she had mentioned she might bring a friend. Her friend was no longer able to join her, so now she’s coming alone.

I’m happy that I’ll be able to see her, because she lives very far and we talk all the time. It will be really good to be able to talk in person and hang out and go places.

Her trip starts tomorrow, but I’m actually REALLY ANXIOUS about it. I am a loner, and I definitely am the type of person who likes to be around people but then spend the rest of the evening alone. I don’t know how I will keep her entertained for so many days, and I also worry that I won’t want to do the things she wants to do, which is completely selfish. I know it’s her vacation and I know that it’s selfish, but whenever I experience anxiety, I become very concerned about only myself, because all I want is to feel ‘normal’ again.

I woke up feeling achy, tired and nauseous. I know that it’s all in my head, but there’s this thought of ‘But what if I get sick when she’s here? I need to be her chauffeur and her caretaker while she’s here. I can’t get sick.’

I genuinely wish her trip was shorter. I feel so terrible admitting it but I feel better telling someone, somewhere, to get it off my chest.



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[vicky23]

Hi,
I can very much relate to this. There's nothing to feel terrible about, some people just like their own space. I find that when I have visitors I fear that I'll have to be hostess ALL the time but when they get here they sometimes want some space too and it feels quite natural to spend a bit of time apart then meet up for say meal times.
I really hope you enjoy her visit

[darklantern]

That’s a really good point.
Thank you so much for adding a comment. It made me feel better.


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[darklantern]

That’s a great idea!
I also think I’m going to sleep at my apartment while she sleeps at the air bnb. I think with us spending so much time together, it would be a good idea to have some space.

I woke up with a chills and a stomachache over this. I can’t believe I’m this anxious over something so stupid. I should be excited.


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[sarahblonde32]

I can relate! I hate people coming to stay or visit me!! I have turned into a recluse recently! I like socialising but i cant wait to get home and shut my front door. My anxiety has made this worse over recent years and i freak out at the thought of meeting up with friends and dating... No way!! You don't have to do everything with your friend, you could one day have a headache or plans to visit family? Tell her where the buses are and say i'll meet you later?
Good luck.. I feel your pain.. X

[darklantern]

I can relate! I hate people coming to stay or visit me!! I have turned into a recluse recently! I like socialising but i cant wait to get home and shut my front door. My anxiety has made this worse over recent years and i freak out at the thought of meeting up with friends and dating... No way!! You don't have to do everything with your friend, you could one day have a headache or plans to visit family? Tell her where the buses are and say i'll meet you later?
Good luck.. I feel your pain.. X

I literally feel like I just read something I wrote myself!? You sound just like how I feel! What a relief!

I LITERALLY told someone the other day that I’m like a recluse sometimes... I ALWAYS want to be alone, always want to be in my room. I’m so tired of feeling anxious, or that I can’t be around people. It’s so exhausting...!


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[Laura123]

I do exactly the same thing, I agree tonsomething that I know is putting me out of my comfort zone and then I worry myself sick about it and regret committing, us anxious folk don’t like committing do we, it’s like we panic when we think we can’t eacape a situation or place or person, I think it’s because when we are anxious we retreat into ourselves and we need our space. I’m sure this friend knows you very well and will be understanding that you will have moments when you just need your space, be honest and talk about your struggles, real friends will always understand and want to support you.