Hi folks
I'm new and apologies if I get the protocol wrong - I couldn't quite work out whether the Multiple Post rule meant max. 1 post across all topics, or within the same topic. Anyway...
I started online CBT 2 weeks ago for my severe level anxiety, although I'm high functioning and don't have any formal 'label' as such. I've dabbled with CBT in person over the years but not online before and have only ever done short bursts purely due to cost issues. This time it is funded.
I have to say I'm finding it frustrating. The 1st week was interesting, keeping a diary to identify patterns. But in the 2nd week my therapist told me I just need to try Sitting with my anxiety. I'm not finding that reassuring at all...ive been just living with it for 30 years and whilst I function ok in the work / keeping going / not killing myself sense, I'm utterly miserable and feel only half alive. It's exhausting, limiting my capacity to enjoy life and my family and driving a huge wedge into my relationship with my husband.
I feel very disillusioned that learning to just accept it may be all there is. Do I have completely unrealistic expectations of what this can do for me (I admit I'm not even sure what I want or expect. Anything!!) or does it get better?
Thank you