Hi everyone! If you have followed along with my previous posts, it has been sort of a rough go of things with my journey through anxiety and depression. I tried for years to self manage and self medicate with alcohol but it only made the situation worse.
I spent the last two years not drinking or taking benzos to get myself back to "normal", but my anxiety was still there. After suffering from an ectopic pregnancy last year, my anxiety/depression and agoraphobia went through the roof. I was in the emergency room every month with a new symptom or illness, I lost two jobs within six months and started to isolate from everyone and everything.
The beginning of April, I found myself thinking more and more about suicide and the downward spiral began. I prayed to God to give me some relief from my problems as I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Not even 24 hours later, I (by the grace of God) was able to see a psychiatrist who finally gave me the right diagnosis of OCD with GAD/Depression. I was put on a week of 10 MG prozac followed by 20 MG.
The past 60 days have been so difficult as my anxiety got worse, I sat on the toilet for hours on end and slept more *and less* than I ever have in my life. I frequented this site for any advice on my ailments or side affects only to get the message of "DONT STOP THE MEDS!! KEEP GOING".. And I did.
For those of you going through that right now, all I can say is.. DONT STOP THE MEDS I was very reluctant on staying on because I hate side effects, but the past week I have noticed more of a difference than I ever have. I literally climbed a mountain two days ago, by myself.. went shopping, out to eat, visited old friends. All the while being able to manage my thoughts, feelings and anxiety. I finally feel like who I am meant to be thanks to prozac. I know everyone is different and it may not work for some, but all I can say is please don't give up.
I woke up Monday morning with a new zest for life. Medicine combined with therapy has literally saved my life and I could not be more thankful. Please let me know if you have any specific questions about my journey or side effects.