Feeling low / relapse - Help

[Alexldn89]

My anxiety and ocd appeared full force after a stressful period back last year..
Since then I didn’t want to take medication from the gp so I decided to try the holistic approach.
I changed my diet .. I exercise more and take tumeric cbd oil and vitamins and it has indeed helped me.

Then I got pregnant. I can’t take anything at all..
UNLESS it’s proper medication. Which I don’t want, I’ve been so strong without it I just don’t want to start that now.. BUTTTT my anxiety is raging.
To the point where all the things I taught myself have come back and I feel like I’m back to square one. I just need some reassurance here because I don’t know if I am going mad..

I keep worrying that I’m hearing things, like when I’m half asleep I’ll hear singing and stuff like that.. I home in on every little sound that seems out of place and I keep wondering if I’m actually hearing it or not ..
or I’ll ask if someone else heard it..
I think I see things lke writing on paper that isn’t there or things move past me etc etc ..
I’m sitting at work right now and I’m sure I can see something written on this paper but when I look close enough it’s just where it’s wrinkled.. then I start to get that rush of adrenaline where I imagine it’s because I’m going mad and I’m going to really see something that isn’t there ..
I keep looking round the room ans I feel so detached from it..
Like I’m not real.. like any moment I’m going to lose it and do something crazy or mad or lose control..

On my good days I don’t even think about it but last week I was stressed and I drove somehweee long distance on the weekend and now it’s spiked.
On Saturday I sleep walked and poured a drink on the floor, probably by accident but I’ve sat worrying I did it on purpose .. I got myself so stressed about it I had bad dreams that I was hearing things and feeling things and I woke up stressed ..

I don’t know what to do I feel so shit and I had come so far /:. I’m not depressed I’m quite upbeat but I worry about if I’m getting paranoid or if I’m losing the plot and am hearing things and seeing Thjngs ..
I worry I’m slowly losing it and I’m frightening myself ..

Just need some help please xxx

[Sleepy]

My son suffers from OCD and described the symptoms to me which sound very much like yours. He found himself a CBT specialist who was a lifesaver for him. He has not taken any meds and she gave him the tools to control it himself. Believe me, he was in a terrible state before he got help.

[Alexldn89]

I have had Cbt and that I just am in a nose dive at the moment with the hormones so I’m feeling crap.. just nice to be reminded your not going mad tbh