Day 1 of 3.75mg (ish - it is not easy to cut these pills into quarters!)
So took 3.7mg last night, along with 1mg of Melatonin and slept like a log - to the extent that my wife tried to say something to me about 30min after switching off the lights, and I did not respond and did not wake up...
Slept right through until 7am when my son woke me up to get him ready for school.
Bit tired, groggy and dizzy today, but grateful for the sleep. No real anxiety or depression issues as yet and, apart from a slight headache and some trembling/slight jitteriness, no other issues. Will see how the day goes.
This drug, and my response to it, continues to be very weird. Why - if I have insomnia on it at 30mg, 15mg and 7.5mg, would I suddenly sleep through on 3.75mg? If I had a tolerance to the histamine side of things, or an a-typical response to it, surely this would not happen. Or maybe it is because I was so exhausted, and now there was less impact on the histamine receptors, so my body could sleep by itself (with a little help from the melatonin). Weird.
As for my regimen during this process, in case this is useful to anyone, it is as follows:
1. High strength omega 3-6-9 fish oil pills in the morning
2. Iron +B vits+ Vit C+ Zinc effervescent drink in the morning (Feroglobin)
3. 400mg Magnesium Citrate before bed
4. Occasional (usually a few times a week, and always with at least 1 day off in between) 1mg Melatonin 30min before bed.
5. Very rare (maybe once every 2 or 3 weeks - but if needed then more) - 1mg Lorezepam and 3.75mg Zopiclone. These are for real emergencies only and, unless things are desperate, I try and go as long as possible without one.
6. Green tea every morning, and one coffee before lunch. No caffeine after 1pm.
7. Try to eat as healthy as possible - cut down on sugar and all the rest. Lots of Kale and nuts lol.
8.I go to the gym 3-4 times a week, and get at least 30min exercise every day (I get off the Tube 2 stops early in the morning, and walk the last 20-30min, for example).
9. Headspace app meditation for 15-20min every morning (though I often have to do this on the commute, so it is not ideal!)
10. Lots of hugs from my wife and 7 year old.
I try to focus on each day as its own entity, and try to make sure there is something positive each day - even if it is just reading a bedtime story with my son, or going to the gym and getting exercise so I am healthier and (hopefully) will be around for longer for him.
I try to keep busy (easy when you have a hectic job and a small child!) and am trying to get better at not wasting hours worrying about how I am feeling, and about medication and anxiety and all the rest. This last is the hardest, and I think will take the longest to deal with. But CBT and ACT etc will hopefully help with that.
Am planning to stay on this dose for 10-14 days and then, if there have been no issues, go down in smaller pieces for a few days and then stop. So hopefully by Xmas should be med free.