Hi Otterman,
The feelings mutual. You have been supportive to me too and each night I've looked forward to seeing how you are doing and sharing my moments, however difficult they have been. That's been priceless. We may not have met face to face, but we've been on a very tough journey together. My god we have. And sharing that has kept me going. I've also enjoyed our banter. So I thank you too.
The journey is not over for either of us. But I believe the medication has done what we doubted on many occasions. Im so glad to be out of that torment and misery. It is great what you have lined up tomorrow. And I believe you are going to enjoy that very special get together. Having a cheque from the revenue is a boost, and your wife's pay rise is also something to ease worry. I feel calmer for now as I am busy with work and can look forward to covering some bills without eating into my savings. I've been at my computer today until 8.45. I will push on over the weekend too. I am going to do my best to keep everyone happy. The work is actually energising me not draining me like the anxiety did. Who knows what is around the corner with work? Its likely some quiet times. But I will live in the moment for now and feel that all those little steps are getting me back on track.
Earlier today I went out to walk the dog. I realised I had locked myself out! Usually I call my partner or sister, but they are both away. Ive said to myself these past days, be extra careful not to do that! Anyway, luckily the 1st floor window was open. I borrowed a ladder from my neighbour and got in. So perhaps we both have guardian angels watching out for us. I have another neighbour who is a good person. Him and his wife know Im on my own right now. Anyway, his daughter brought me a plate of home made pie and veg over tonight. How thoughtful is that? I really enjoy connecting with people, and as well as that, I've made plenty of friends with other dog walkers these past days. I keep bumping in to them along the river path which is outside my house. Its a real community.
Take care,
Rad1