Hi Otterman,
Good the dr gave you more sleepers, as a reserve. Sounds like a rough day. But at least posivity at the end as you did the shed roof. I did my meeting ok. I’ve lost a lot of weight and wondered if anyone would comment. They didn’t. It was all very friendly. My brain wasn’t in gear and I felt out of my depth to be honest. Listening to the other 4 i realised how much out of my depth I am. Not good for confidence but then again I’m pleased I handled myself ok.
I was so tired after, I did a food shop trying to find the bargains. We spend way over what is now going to be viable. My partner carries on buying quality items and it worries. Switching back doesn’t seem like her priority. If I raise it it causes friction and upset. I believe in a good diet, but if possible via the bargains.
I tried to sleep for a bit this afternoon but got overwhelmed with anxiety and had a lump in my throat. But I had a good end to the day, I bought a lovely bike for my girl. I found it on eBay. A bargain. Picked it up a few miles away and she was ever so happy to try it out before bedtime. Her little face lifted me. I told my brother in law about the lump in my throat all afternoon, which was down to anxiety. He commented that I should ‘live in the moment,’ not be so fearful of what may never happen. And he’s probably right, but it’s hard not to be anxious with my position. That anxiety makes me feel I won’t be able to cope.
I hope you get through the day much better tomorrow. I will do my utmost to do the same. It’s very tiring and sad, but we will hopefully be calmer and happier in ourselves before long. Keep your chin-up Otterman.
Rad1