I haven't visited NMP in a while as since having some CBT counselling I've been feeling much more independent and confident about life in general which has been a real breath of fresh air, but now is a little different; you see, I'm getting married a week tomorrow (06/08) and the nerves are starting to kick in, which means that the 'what ifs' are also sneaking back - what if I can't go through with it? What if I panic and am physically ill? What if I make a fool of myself in front of all those people? What if I let my fiance and my family down?
I know from my CBT sessions that I need to turn these thoughts into something positive, but the closer the wedding gets, the more tired I feel, and the slower my brain is to conjure positive thoughts, which is allowing the negative ones to take over a bit