Well.... i'm a long story, but for short, I used to be active on this site years ago. I have a long rap sheet of health anxiety since it started around 16 (i'm 23 now) and beat it sometimes, and other times it beats me. i'm at the point of defeat now, convinced i'm going to die on a specific date (Is insane) and knowing it could be a literal symptom of something life threatening, has my anxiety through the roof. Sometimes I feel like i'm going psychotic or at beginning stages of psychosis and do experience depersonalization from time to time and turn to stimulants like alcohol and marijuana to cope with it, which helped in the short term but in the long term I think it's done much more damage than good... but that's for another story time. the problem I have today is, I have a feeling of impending doom and i'm not sure how to get over it, i'm convinced I will die on July 19th, and no matter what I always go back to the thought, i believe i'll have lyme disease, heart attack etc on that date, and it gives me anxiety. I've only thought about it for about a month now. Has anyone felt this way? gone through this? What have you done to lessen panic attacks? Any help is appreciated. thank you <3