urgh!!

recently turned 18 year old girl here... so i have been taking driving lessons - today will be my 6th hour driving. the issue is i get so nervous and overwhelmed i cry and tear up feeling like a failure! i'm too cautious and hesitant on the road. i cry in front of my instructor so i feel so embarrassed! i'm probably the biggest cry baby student he has had, how weak and pathetic of me.

i dread lessons! it's less of a phobia about the driving itself but more about the concept of lessons! sitting in a car doing something new which i muck up on with a guy i barely know secretly judging me... and yes i have diagnosed disorder - OCD. i am naturally nervous on top of that

lesson in 3 hours really just can't stay calm!