Originally Posted by
TheLostSaga
Okay to preface, I have had insomnia basically all my life, I have sleep-onset insomnia which means that it's hard for me to fall asleep.
Well fast forward to yesterday, I woke up from a 7 hour sleep at around 10pm (terrible I know but my schedule has been a disaster for some time.)
I stayed awake until around 3am the next day and figured I should try to sleep despite the fact that I wasn't feeling sleepy or really tired. I laid down in bed, and took probably I think like a 10 minute nap. I DREAMED during those 10 minutes, which kinda unsettled me, but since I couldn't actually sleep for long and was just tossing and turning I decided to try to stay awake the entire day to try to fix my sleep schedule.
Well fast forward to 8pm today, throughout the day I'd have moments where I felt like I could pass out, which then immediately went away and I was wide awake again. I decided to try to sleep however and .... nothing.
I couldn't sleep at all, I was just tossing and turning. Again the same thing happened where I slept for probably 10 minutes and DREAMED, I dreamed about things I actively was having my mind before I lost consciousness, I don't 100% remember the dreams, but there you have it. I also have hypnic jerks both when I tried to sleep at 3am and then again at 8pm. It won't be a full body 'jerk' but my shoulder will jerk up or my leg will jerk and it will be enough to put me wide awake again and sabotage any chance of sleep I could have gotten. I have these jerks while wide awake, but have only ever had this persistent hypnic jerks once before when I was having a bad panic episode.
I also still don't feel tired or sleepy. It's been over 24hrs since I last slept and I still don't feel like I have to sleep despite knowing I should and that I need to.
Sporadic Fatal Insomnia (SFI) has always kinda been in the back of my mind every time I have a bad insomniac episode but it's never been like this before and honestly I'm terrified. I tried to take a Valium and that didn't help at all.
I'm scared the dreaming so fast (within 10min) is a bad sign, is this vivid dreaming? Or are those only ones where you 100% remember them. What about never feeling sleepy or even tired?
I know right now a big reason why I can't sleep atm is because I'm having a panic attack currently but I was really calm and at peace earlier. I'm so scared I've been shaking really badly and all I can think about is how I'm never going to be able to sleep again. Any reassurances or similar experiences that any of you could share would help a lot.