Yeah. I did some reading on the subconscious and dreams and everything, and how dreams affect the subconscious. I feel like I'm waiting for the blood to stop, so I can move on but it won't probably as long as I still have harder motions, which you guys think is aggravating piles or just causing friction/cuts in my rectum. But isn't it possible that a harder stool could also scrape against a polyp or tumour, causing it to bleed? Or would that bleed anyway?
I'm just so scared :( every time I try to enjoy myself or take time to relax, the fear comes back and it's so convincing