Not even sneezing porn, it's simply innocent sneezing that some people get off on
I suppose you're right, already now I feel a little better. I just went to toilet and no more obvious signs of blood I don't think,
except something mushy and dark luminous seeming red that I tasted (I know that's disgusting but I was desperate) and it didn't seem like blood, it had a slight fleshy texture, and surprise surprise, I only see whatever that was after having something like pizza or in this case, fajitas, last night. So that reassured me
Now I have to wait for myself to feel really happy again and then it'll hit me all over again that yup... I DID just see a long strand of mucus with dark red blood in it. Yippee
It feels like a surreal nightmare
I did think though... that bowel movement yesterday was triggered by eating
A LOT** of junk food and it HURT multiple times and I held that in. And I know at least a little bit/the start of it was hard so it could've caused a cut or something in the lining of my colon causing a bleed
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If you wanna see everything I ate, here are the EXACT products:
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5x small chocolate bars
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Lemon Meringue Pie that is supposed to serve 6..
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2 sausage/bean/cheese bakes
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2 of these smaller steak pies
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3 apples
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4 bags of crisps
and maybe some leftover food that didn't leave my system from the BM before that
I'm not proud of it, but I really do just eat junk, somehow I'm not "fat" yet which I think is why I carry on since it sometimes feels like it has no effect on me, I was so determined to change my diet before I lost motivation again. I'll still make an effort though