Have I got rectal cancer?

[nomorepanic]

You life has already been ripped away though with HA - not cancer!

[Toby2000]

So...

Cause 1: Symptoms vary, come & go, condition can be long term and has triggers.

Cause 2: Two fissures, possible. Two internal damage events, which would imply the need for medical intervention, very unlikely.

Or...

Cause 1: Two doctors, one a specialist, agree there are no symptoms of cancer.

Cause 2: Really? You've ruled out every possible bowel condition? Haven't you just gone from 10mph to 100mph by going from extremely common roids/fissures with triggers of bad diet to a cancer that is rare in your age group and even rarer hasn't progressed over a year of having no treatment? Or a new cancer that has suddenly developed since you saw your doctors?

You really need to re-read this thread and see how what you are saying no is absolutely no different to what you have been saying all along.

If it's 3 months for a colonoscopy then they don't believe it's cancer even now otherwise you would need to be fast tracked and seen within about 2 weeks to pass the NHS target. And remember what has been said before, this is a pure reassurance check and if on the NHS you are in the way of someone else who very likely needs it more and has been waiting months too.

I know but it's hard relying on it being a fissure or nothing. I was thinking maybe erosion on the inside I don't even know... but I just can't explain that blood

I know. I probably won't even get a colonoscopy anyway, no doctor has even been in the realm of mentioning one before

[Toby2000]

Prove that you mean that though?

The only way to do that is to stop looking for interaction on here with emotive posts in graphic detail of your latest symptoms which are guaranteed to get a response and a reaction. Your Mum knows you well and doesn't give you the reaction you crave.

I mean this forum is like one form of therapy for me.. even if no one replies I like to use it to log my thoughts. Sometimes I find myself rationalising it so that's good

[Toby2000]

Good, keep trying. You can't expect to just feel better, you have to keep going until things change. Even in therapy this will be the case as your subconscious is ingrained with all these negative thinking styles.

Digging your way out of mental health issues can involve doing things just because they are things the non sufferers do. You may hate them but the point is to re-establish healthier activities. Eventually enjoyment returns,

It felt nice to be out I guess but it also felt like my mind was like "retreat" as soon as I started thinking about cancer but I kept going

[Toby2000]

Now I'm scared of eating, because I don't want to experience pains or diarrhea again

I know the pains and diarrhea were both caused by a) eating a sh*t tonne of food the first time, b) eating that horrible mac and cheese and the carrot cake

But I don't know what to eat that won't send me to the toilet panicking because even healthy things high in fiber may not agree with me because I barely have it and it could cause looser stools since that's the idea of fiber

But I also don't want anything unhealthy because of what's happened over the past few days

[MrLurcher]

I think you really need to practice acceptance on this.

The pains and diarrhea could, but more probably an IBS sort of thing. Since my flexible sigmoidoscopy, a lot of my weird symptoms have calmed down. The bloating, the pain after eating, the fullness in my rectum, cramps. Those have all halved in intensity. I still get the odd moments of IBS. Only two weeks ago I had a terrible bought of IBS that sent me sweating buckets and cramping like mad.

What helped me as well was to stop checking poo. Yep I did it, and its really not something im proud of admitting. But wiping and flushing, and no looking, really does help.

I agree regarding the fibre. Unfortunately, sometimes, eating lots of veg and fruit makes my IBS symptoms a bit worse, but sometimes I can eat whatever I want and im fine!

Try not to worry about the pains and diarrhea too much, it happens to everyone - especially those obsessed by their bowels. I didnt really think anxiety played THAT much of a part in my bowel habits months and months ago, but looking back, it REALLY did.

Now I know you've seen blood etc, but I do know a few young people who've had recurring piles as well. My dad also has them reoccuring at least 3/4 times a year, and he's never been checked out by a doc, just gets the cream from the chemist.

[Toby2000]

I think you really need to practice acceptance on this.

The pains and diarrhea could, but more probably an IBS sort of thing. Since my flexible sigmoidoscopy, a lot of my weird symptoms have calmed down. The bloating, the pain after eating, the fullness in my rectum, cramps. Those have all halved in intensity. I still get the odd moments of IBS. Only two weeks ago I had a terrible bought of IBS that sent me sweating buckets and cramping like mad.

What helped me as well was to stop checking poo. Yep I did it, and its really not something im proud of admitting. But wiping and flushing, and no looking, really does help.

I agree regarding the fibre. Unfortunately, sometimes, eating lots of veg and fruit makes my IBS symptoms a bit worse, but sometimes I can eat whatever I want and im fine!

Try not to worry about the pains and diarrhea too much, it happens to everyone - especially those obsessed by their bowels. I didnt really think anxiety played THAT much of a part in my bowel habits months and months ago, but looking back, it REALLY did.

Now I know you've seen blood etc, but I do know a few young people who've had recurring piles as well. My dad also has them reoccuring at least 3/4 times a year, and he's never been checked out by a doc, just gets the cream from the chemist.

I get it with the symptoms disappearing when you stop worrying thing, the problem with me was when I stopped worrying that's when I started getting much harder difficult to pass stools and I kept seeing blood on them. But then when I start worrying it's usually diarrhoea or constipation with diarrhoea, it's weird

I did practice the no looking thing too until I wiped the other day and saw small bits of blood on the paper. Not fun

[Toby2000]

How about this time I actually do take a small break from the forum?

I'm sorry FMP.

[MyNameIsTerry]

To be frank, some of the replies on here are turning into harrasement and I'm sure are breaking forum rules.

Don't worry about the 'proof' stuff Toby, you really don't need to do it, as those who believe you will continue believing you, those who don't won't change their mind anyway.

I agree with this.


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I too think you are making really good progress Toby - there are some spend a lifetime MAYBE getting to the point where you are now, and you are moving forward at a good pace.

I have no idea why admin are allowing this carefully crafted passive-aggressive harrassement to take place on this thread, it seems to break all rules and reports have been made.....yet they are allowed to continue....

I am trying to understand why it is ok for this member to be accused of various things, to have non-supportive and indeed damaging and hurtful comments made, without their removal, yet on other members' threads they are stamped on immediately. I don't know what your issue is FMP with this articulate and very intelligent young man (YES, YOUNG MAN) but your continual taunting is troubling.

If this post gets removed, unlike all the others that have been reported on this thread, then I will be absolutely beyond furious ! If this is removed and the offensive/offending posts then a different matter.

Thanks everyone, and it's fine honestly Carys. Hopefully FMP just stops replying to this thread. In fact I'll block him

He's on my ignore list now, problem solved

It is on the list of things to look at and will get dealt with.

You don’t need to do that, it’s fine and sorted now

Hopefully sorted now anyway

???

[Toby2000]

I'm sorry for causing so much trouble, I can honestly take a week long break from here if that'll make everyone feel better, it might do me some good too, though I'd have to try not to google as well