Have I got rectal cancer?

[Toby2000]

This all feels like a big joke now..

It's 10 days off a year since I started seeing blood and here I am, still seeing blood

I don't get why it wasn't bright red if it was from a pile

[Toby2000]

I can't do this anymore.. how I've survived and kept my sanity for a whole YEAR with this is literally beyond me.

Hopefully we're getting to the stage now where if it is colon cancer, I'll start experiencing symptoms that are enough to get it diagnosed

I think if it's still not causing me serious problems like colon cancer does in it's more advanced stages by January I'll be much more reassured but that's 6 months away.. :(

I also have my A Levels to start in September, this is just perfect

[BlueIris]

And we're back to square 1 again.

For what it's worth, I just went on a short break with one of my main HA triggers going off on me. It wasn't easy, but I still had a lovely time - it just took self-discipline to remind myself to keep living in the moment.

[Toby2000]

I do end up calming down but still I'll have to live with the fact of what happened today

What do you think caused it? :(

[BlueIris]

I have no clue.

"Sometimes bodies just do stuff" is a useful mantra to try and live by as a HA person.

[MyNameIsTerry]

All of this has been answered may times before. There is little point addressing it as it's reassurance seeking. Therefore re-read what has been said and look towards changing it and doing better things with your time.

[Phuzella]

Just leave your poor bum alone.

[Toby2000]

All of this has been answered may times before. There is little point addressing it as it's reassurance seeking. Therefore re-read what has been said and look towards changing it and doing better things with your time.

But the thing is that it was looser stools / borderline diarrhea but I still had a streak of blood on the side of the last bit of stool that came out and blood when I wiped sort of tinged in the mucus/looser stool

I was sort of expecting it because I was on and off the toilet all night and sat down a lot and straining a little but why wasn't it bright red? It makes no sense :(

It was like a dull sort or red: https://www.neenahpaper.com/-/media/...-dull-kid.ashx

When I took a photo of the stool with blood on it with the flash on, it did look quite bright (the blood) though. But just not bright bright

[Toby2000]

This is officially the worst time of my life

[Toby2000]

This is so tough :(