Lymph Node Update - Scared

[MyNameIsTerry]

I haven't done anything specific to address my anxiety in a while. I wasn't feeling super anxious until I started feeling like my groin node was getting a little bit bigger after like 8 months of seeming to be the same size.

Once I get through this maybe I will look into more anxiety treatment. My anxiety very much comes in waves / seasons so its when I'm feeling better its hard to feel motivated to great treatment because I'm feeling fine and not really worrying about anything. Then when I start worrying about a health topic I feel debilitated until I get to the bottom of that first.

I really hope it's nothing, but I honestly fear it is lymphoma.

I have read stories, even on hypochondria forums, of people being diagnosed with lymphoma after like 8 months of getting nowhere with doctors. That's what really scares me.

But how many of them have all the different types of cancers you've had in the last couple of years?

Yes, some people are failed by doctors but they are thankfully the minority.

And what about all the other times you were certain?

[darkside4k]

I went to a primary care doctor this morning to let him feel the groin node. He said it could be a lymph node and it doesn't feel too significant right now but to come back if it gets bigger / is easily felt just lightly brushing across the skin.

I don't know. Feel like the whole was kind of a waste of time. I do still 100% believe the groin lymph node has gotten slightly bigger over the last month or so and is definitely lymphoma. But, it sounds like I'll just have to sit around and let it get bigger before anyone will do anything. Just let the cancer progress even further I guess. So depressing.

[utrocket09]

I went to a primary care doctor this morning to let him feel the groin node. He said it could be a lymph node and it doesn't feel too significant right now but to come back if it gets bigger / is easily felt just lightly brushing across the skin.

I don't know. Feel like the whole was kind of a waste of time. I do still 100% believe the groin lymph node has gotten slightly bigger over the last month or so and is definitely lymphoma. But, it sounds like I'll just have to sit around and let it get bigger before anyone will do anything. Just let the cancer progress even further I guess. So depressing.

What cancer!? If you had cancer, they would not have let you leave the appointment without further testing.

You have got to stop with the nonsense.

[darkside4k]

But you and I both know that is not true. Doctors aren't concerned about something that ends up being serious *all the time*. I have been feeling this lymph node off and on for the last 9 months. I know it feels different now. It feels like two little lumps now instead of just one. That is a symptom of lymphoma.

I guess I will make another appointment somewhere else. I'm so depressed about this.

[utrocket09]

But you and I both know that is not true. Doctors aren't concerned about something that ends up being serious *all the time*. I have been feeling this lymph node off and on for the last 9 months. I know it feels different now. It feels like two little lumps now instead of just one. That is a symptom of lymphoma.

I guess I will make another appointment somewhere else. I'm so depressed about this.

I can tell you that it is true. So now, you are going to waste more time and resources on something that is not serious, nor is it cancer. What happened to the other serious illnesses you were so sure you had?

If someone has cancer, they do not normally question it. They know they are ill, and usually others around them can tell they are ill.

If you are so sure you have cancer, then I guess go make an appointment at a cancer center then.

[MyNameIsTerry]

But you and I both know that is not true. Doctors aren't concerned about something that ends up being serious *all the time*. I have been feeling this lymph node off and on for the last 9 months. I know it feels different now. It feels like two little lumps now instead of just one. That is a symptom of lymphoma.I guess I will make another appointment somewhere else. I'm so depressed about this.

Training for lymph node checking is pretty basic and they use it constantly for benign things like infections. I think they are a bit more objective about what constitutes a concern over someone who has been "definitely" sure they had how many cancers in the last couple of years?

[Fishmanpa]

If you are so sure you have cancer, then I guess go make an appointment at a cancer center then.

Unless you have a diagnosis, that will be a total out of pocket expense and a huge one. I was diagnosed locally and wasn't comfortable with the doctors or game plan. I contacted Johns Hopkins for a 2nd opinion, had all my records forwarded and had an entire team of oncologists and other specialists take on my case.

Anyway... we all know the deal here. I think there should be a sub-forum called SSDD. There are more than a few members who's posts and threads would qualify.

Positive thoughts

[utrocket09]

Unless you have a diagnosis, that will be a total out of pocket expense and a huge one. I was diagnosed locally and wasn't comfortable with the doctors or game plan. I contacted Johns Hopkins for a 2nd opinion, had all my records forwarded and had an entire team of oncologists and other specialists take on my case.

Anyway... we all know the deal here. I think there should be a sub-forum called SSDD. There are more than a few members who's posts and threads would qualify.

Positive thoughts

That is the whole point, if darkide is as ill as he says he is, he might as well just to a cancer center. Seeing as he wants to waste time and resources.

[Fishmanpa]

That is the whole point, if darkide is as ill as he says he is, he might as well just to a cancer center. Seeing as he wants to waste time and resources.

IF they'll even see him. There has to be a reason to do so. There are actual cancer patients that are more important than a severe hypochondriac. That said, he can pay for unnecessary tests and 2nd opinions till the cows come home and we'll still see him here crying wolf

Positive thoughts

[Carys]

Just let the cancer progress even further I guess.

(This is the only eye-rolling emoticon I could find, but it doesn't really do the job)