Does anyone else has these intense feelings of guilt that come with depression?

Like I am scared I will die from various diseases but at the end of it all the thing that kills me the most is that I feel like I am guilty of those things - rabies= i touched stray cats, deadly bacterial infection = i accepted antibiotics from my GP when i didnt really need them, meningitis = i picked my face in the danger triangle

The list can go on but like I always feel guilty. This pain isn't going away I hate it. My soul hurts and I keep scolding myself and feel that once I die people will say like "Well it's her fault". It's terrible.