Now, a part of me is scared of making this post and slipping right back into my only ways (I feel like that has defo happened before!)
So, I manged a flight over and back. Manged not to have a heart attack or anything I was worried about. Did mange to bring a head-cold of some type with me! Feel all stuffed up and icky! But for once...it's nothing big (No big serious illness). It's just a head-cold. It will pass in a few days. It's been a long, long road but I've slowly and surely started to believe that maybe not everything is a reason for worry or running to the doctors. I won't list out everything I had tested here! I've done that lots before and it never helped me one bit!
I've suffered with mental health issues...nearly all my life. Yet health anxiety has really taken the tool on me! I've been in therapy for awhile now and I feel like I'm moving forward. I recently was away from home and I found I didn't have the same issues sleeping or worrying. It seems the place I thought was my safe place may make me dwell even more.
I've got a long way to go but I'm moving forward! I've really tried my best to work on things with my family and friends. Build contacts even further, I can see the change so if there's a bad moment. I try to remind myself of the good! It feels good to know people can know that you can listen to them after them listening to you for so long.
My sister wedding is in just under 3 months! I've know lost a stone in weight! All with work at the gym and just being careful with food. Not over or under doing it with diet!
There's so much positive stuff I could say here, which makes a change! I know there's other stuff besides health anxiety but I'm working on that in therapy. Not to beat myself up to much if I do have a slip back with the health but I hope it's final heading towards the good days. Where I don't always think about heart attacks, tumors, etc etc. I'm 22 and I want to enjoy life.