Re: Relapsing anxiety sufferer.
I have terrible visual snow too, it becomes a blizzard full of all sorts of threatening things as I'm sure you know too, hope you find coming here helps, just knowing that others experience similar thought processes calms me, there's never any guarantee you won't encounter the things you fear, but the fear itself is definitely something you suffer from and that must be tackled.
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''...an utter depression of soul which I can compare to no earthly sensation more properly than to the after-dream of the reveller upon opium - the bitter lapse into everyday life, the hideous dropping off of the veil. There was an iciness, a sinking, a sickening of the heart, an unredeemed dreariness of thought which no goading of the imagination could torture into aught of the sublime.''