Everyone, please: Symptoms Questionnaire :)

[popejoan]

Headaches/migraines: No

Vision disturbances: No

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc.): No

Toothaches: No

Gum issues (nerve pain, bleeding): Yes - nerve pain and bleeding

Facial numbness: No

Adult acne: No, unless it's PMS time

Difficulty swallowing: No

Ringing in ears/pain: No

TMJ: Maybe

Neck & shoulder stiffness/tension: Yes

Numbness in left arm/right arm/both: No

Numbness in hands (all over/mostly middle fingers): No

Hands trembling: Yes

Fingernail issues (splitting/cracking, ridges): NO

Chest discomfort (sharp pain, dull ache, pressure, inability to take deep breath): No

Heart - racing, palpitations, skipped beats/hard thumps: Sometimes

Back pain (upper. middle, lower): Sometimes

Rib pain (left/right/both sides): No

Breast discomfort (pain, sensitivity, burning sensations): No

Underarm issues (lumps, sensitivity): No

Stomach issues (sharp pain, dull ache, indigestion, acid reflux, gas, nausea): Yes - gas, indigestion, nausea, acid reflux

Abdominal issues (pain - left side, right side, middle, random): Yes - random

Intestinal issues (diarrhea, constipation, flat stools, consistently discolored stools, appearance of blood): Yes - IBS
Frequent urination: Yes

Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs": Yes -all of them

Feet/toes - numbness, pain: No

Joint pain/stiffness/inflammation: Yes - joint pain

Skin issues (itching, "bugs crawling under skin" feeling, eczema, psoriasis): Yes - itching

Overall "traveling" random muscle aches & pains: Yes

Overall weakness: Yes

Feeling like you're about to faint: Yes

Inner feeling of shakiness/giddiness: Yes

Feeling as though a weight is being pressed down on your head: No

Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations: Yes - under right foot

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot): No

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold): No



Psychological Symptoms



Chronic worrying: Yes

Feeling like you're going to go crazy: Yes

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered": Yes

Chronic fatigue: Yes

Overall feeling of being "off": Yes

Feeling clumsy: Yes

Depression - no longer interested in hobbies, getting out of the house, etc.: Yes

Irritable / impatient: No

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world): Sometimes

Afraid to be alone / clingy: Yes

Agoraphobia or other phobias: No

OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove): Yes constant

Insomnia: Yes

Finally, how old are you? 30

How old do you feel?: Mentally, 30. Physically, 70.

[Aleisha920]

This is a great thread and i know it began a long time ago, but Im just curious does anyone know where it originates from? Like who put this list of symptoms together as caused by underlying anxiety?

[Paul84]

Headaches/migraines: Yes

Vision disturbances: No

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc.): Yes

Toothaches: No

Gum issues (nerve pain, bleeding): Yes occasional bleeding

Facial numbness: Yes

Adult acne: No. Just dermatitis

Difficulty swallowing: No

Ringing in ears/pain: Yes - occasionally

TMJ: Yes

Neck & shoulder stiffness/tension: Yes

Numbness in left arm/right arm/both: Yes - occasionally

Numbness in hands (all over/mostly middle fingers): No

Hands trembling: No

Fingernail issues (splitting/cracking, ridges): No

Chest discomfort (sharp pain, dull ache, pressure, inability to take deep breath): Yes - occasionally

Heart - racing, palpitations, skipped beats/hard thumps: No

Back pain (upper. middle, lower): Sometimes

Rib pain (left/right/both sides): Yes

Breast discomfort (pain, sensitivity, burning sensations): No

Underarm issues (lumps, sensitivity): No

Stomach issues (sharp pain, dull ache, indigestion, acid reflux, gas, nausea): Yes - gas, slight discomfort occasionally

Abdominal issues (pain - left side, right side, middle, random): Yes - random

Intestinal issues (diarrhea, constipation, flat stools, consistently discolored stools, appearance of blood): Mild IBS
Frequent urination: No

Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs": Sometimes

Feet/toes - numbness, pain: No

Joint pain/stiffness/inflammation: Yes - joint pain

Skin issues (itching, "bugs crawling under skin" feeling, eczema, psoriasis): Yes - itching

Overall "traveling" random muscle aches & pains: Yes

Overall weakness: Sometimes

Feeling like you're about to faint: No

Inner feeling of shakiness/giddiness: Sometimes

Feeling as though a weight is being pressed down on your head: No

Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations: Maybe

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot): Maybe

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold): Maybe



Psychological Symptoms



Chronic worrying: Yes

Feeling like you're going to go crazy: Yes

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered": Yes

Chronic fatigue: Yes

Overall feeling of being "off": Yes

Feeling clumsy: Yes

Depression - no longer interested in hobbies, getting out of the house, etc.: Comes and goes

Irritable / impatient: Yes

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world): Sometimes

Afraid to be alone / clingy: Yes

Agoraphobia or other phobias: No

OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove): Yes constant

Insomnia: No

Finally, how old are you? 31

How old do you feel?: Mentally, 25. Physically, 40.

[melaniejayne]

Headaches/migraines:*yes

Vision disturbances:*No

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc.):*yes

Toothaches:*No

Gum issues (nerve pain, bleeding):*No

Facial numbness:*A bit
Adult acne:*No

Difficulty swallowing:*no

Ringing in ears/pain:*yes

TMJ:*??

Neck & shoulder stiffness/tension:*Yes

Numbness in left arm/right arm/both:*slightly in left

Numbness in hands (all over/mostly middle fingers):*
Hands trembling. No

Fingernail issues (splitting/cracking, ridges):*no

Chest discomfort (sharp pain, dull ache, pressure, inability to take deep breath):*Yes

Heart - racing, palpitations, yes

Back pain (upper. middle, lower):*Yes

Rib pain (left/right/both sides):*yes
Breast discomfort (pain, sensitivity, burning sensations):*yes

Underarm issues (lumps, sensitivity):*No

Stomach issues (sharp pain, dull ache, indigestion, acid reflux, gas, nausea):*nausea and burping

Abdominal issues (pain - left side, right side, middle, random):*No

Intestinal issues (diarrhea, constipation, flat stools, consistently discolored stools, appearance of blood):*yes 😳

Frequent urination:*yes
Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs":*Yes

Feet/toes - numbness, pain:*No

Joint pain/stiffness/inflammation:*slightly

Skin issues (itching, "bugs crawling under skin" feeling, eczema, psoriasis):*occasionally

Overall "traveling" random muscle aches & pains:*yes

Overall weakness:*no

Feeling like you're about to faint:*yes

Inner feeling of shakiness/giddiness:*Yes

Feeling as though a weight is being pressed down on your head:No
Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations:*yes

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot):*Yes

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold):*Yes


Psychological Symptoms



Chronic worrying:*Yes

Feeling like you're going to go crazy:*Yes

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered":*Yes

Chronic fatigue:*No

Overall feeling of being "off":*Yes

Feeling clumsy:*Yes

Depression - no longer interested in hobbies, getting out of the house, etc.:*depends on how my anxiety is

Irritable / impatient:*Sometimes

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world):*sometimes

Afraid to be alone / clingy:*sometimes

Agoraphobia or other phobias:*no

OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove):*No
Insomnia:*yes


Finally, how old are you?*34

How old do you feel?: too old 😐

[56degree]

Headaches/migraines: Yes

Vision disturbances: mucho floaters

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc.): yes

Toothaches: No

Gum issues (nerve pain, bleeding): No

Facial numbness: No

Adult acne: No

Difficulty swallowing: no

Ringing in ears/pain: Yes

TMJ: No

Neck & shoulder stiffness/tension: Yes

Numbness in left arm/right arm/both: Yes both

Numbness in hands (all over/mostly middle fingers): Yes hands and arms

Hands trembling: Yes

Fingernail issues (splitting/cracking, ridges): yes

Chest discomfort (sharp pain, dull ache, pressure, inability to take deep breath): rarely

Heart - racing, palpitations, skipped beats/hard thumps: Yes, more often in bed

Back pain (upper. middle, lower): Yes, all over

Rib pain (left/right/both sides): YES left side, for weeks drove me crazy thinking i was dying

Breast discomfort (pain, sensitivity, burning sensations): no I'm a dude

Underarm issues (lumps, sensitivity): Yes, itchiness, excessive sweating.

Stomach issues (sharp pain, dull ache, indigestion, acid reflux, gas, nausea): Yes - all of the above

Abdominal issues (pain - left side, right side, middle, random): Yes

Intestinal issues (diarrhea, constipation, flat stools, consistently discolored stools, appearance of blood): Yes mostly constipation

Frequent urination: yes

Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs": Yes

Feet/toes - numbness, pain: yes

Joint pain/stiffness/inflammation: Yes, pain in right hand and knee

Skin issues (itching, "bugs crawling under skin" feeling, eczema, psoriasis): rarely

Overall "traveling" random muscle aches & pains: Yes

Overall weakness: Yes

Feeling like you're about to faint: occasionally

Inner feeling of shakiness/giddiness: Yes, occasionally

Feeling as though a weight is being pressed down on your head: no

Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations: no

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot): no

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold): yes



Psychological Symptoms



Chronic worrying: oh Yes

Feeling like you're going to go crazy: no, I feel like I have GONE crazy

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered": Yes

Chronic fatigue: Yes

Overall feeling of being "off": Yes

Feeling clumsy: Yes,

Depression - no longer interested in hobbies, getting out of the house, etc.: Yes

Irritable / impatient: sometimes

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world): Yes

Afraid to be alone / clingy: no

Agoraphobia or other phobias: i dont think so

OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove): Yes, mostly with my body for lumps, ect

Insomnia: yes


Finally, how old are you? 37

How old do you feel?: 47. Some days older



Comments:

This is a great thread. It's amazing what this can do to you!

[GingerFish]

Physical Symptoms



Headaches/migraines: Yes I am bothered with both tension headaches and migraines with aura

Vision disturbances: Yes, a lot of the time

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc.): rarely

Toothaches: Yes

Gum issues (nerve pain, bleeding): no

Facial numbness: pins and needles sometimes

Adult acne: No

Difficulty swallowing: No

Ringing in ears/pain: Yes

TMJ: Yes - worse pain I have ever experienced

Neck & shoulder stiffness/tension: Yes, every day

Numbness in left arm/right arm/both: no

Numbness in hands (all over/mostly middle fingers): no

Hands trembling: no

Fingernail issues (splitting/cracking, ridges): no

Chest discomfort (sharp pain, dull ache, pressure, inability to take deep breath): yes

Heart - racing, palpitations, skipped beats/hard thumps: Yes

Back pain (upper. middle, lower): Yes - upper

Rib pain (left/right/both sides): sometimes but its mostly my upper back that hurts

Breast discomfort (pain, sensitivity, burning sensations): no

Underarm issues (lumps, sensitivity): no

Stomach issues (sharp pain, dull ache, indigestion, acid reflux, gas, nausea): yes - gas and GERD

Abdominal issues (pain - left side, right side, middle, random): Yes - Random

Intestinal issues (diarrhea, constipation, flat stools, consistently discolored stools, appearance of blood): Yes - always either have diarrhea or constipation

Frequent urination: Yes

Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs": Yes, sometimes

Feet/toes - numbness, pain: no

Joint pain/stiffness/inflammation: no

Skin issues (itching, "bugs crawling under skin" feeling, eczema, psoriasis):no

Overall "traveling" random muscle aches & pains: Yes

Overall weakness: Yes, sometimes

Feeling like you're about to faint: Yes

Inner feeling of shakiness/giddiness: Yes

Feeling as though a weight is being pressed down on your head: no

Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations: Yes - my head and arms

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot): Yes

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold): yes



Psychological Symptoms



Chronic worrying: Yes

Feeling like you're going to go crazy: Yes but not as much as I used to. Reading Dr Claire Weekes books helped

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered": Yes, every day I have a fear I'll end up at the hospital

Chronic fatigue: Yes

Overall feeling of being "off": Yes

Feeling clumsy: Yes

Depression - no longer interested in hobbies, getting out of the house, etc.: occasionally

Irritable / impatient: all the time. i hate waiting

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world): Yes

Afraid to be alone / clingy: sometimes though usually I prefer to be alone more

Agoraphobia or other phobias: was housebound for 6 months a few years ago due to agoraphobia but thankfully not any more. I am still slightly agoraphobic at times though. I also have a serious phobia of being sick.

OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove): Yes I have OCD though mine is more a fear of contamination.

Insomnia: yes to some extent most nights

Finally, how old are you? 23

How old do you feel?: Mentally, 30. Physically, 30.

[jojo198628]

Physical Symptoms



Headaches/migraines: Yes

Vision disturbances: Not really

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc.): Nope

Toothaches: Nope

Gum issues (nerve pain, bleeding): Yes

Facial numbness: Sometimes

Adult acne: Nope

Difficulty swallowing: During a panic attack yea

Ringing in ears/pain: Yes

TMJ: No

Neck & shoulder stiffness/tension: Sometimes

Numbness in left arm/right arm/both: Yes - both especially noticeable during a panic attack

Numbness in hands (all over/mostly middle fingers): Yes

Hands trembling: loads

Fingernail issues (splitting/cracking, ridges): Nope

Chest discomfort (sharp pain, dull ache, pressure, inability to take deep breath): Yes quite abit

Heart - racing, palpitations, skipped beats/hard thumps: Yes - all of the above

Back pain (upper. middle, lower): Yes - lower

Rib pain (left/right/both sides): No

Breast discomfort (pain, sensitivity, burning sensations): Nope

Underarm issues (lumps, sensitivity): Nope

Stomach issues (sharp pain, dull ache, indigestion, acid reflux, gas, nausea): Yes - all of them

Abdominal issues (pain - left side, right side, middle, random): Yes - random

Intestinal issues (diarrhea, constipation, flat stools, consistently discolored stools, appearance of blood): Nope

Frequent urination: Yes

Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs": Yes - twitching

Feet/toes - numbness, pain: Nope

Joint pain/stiffness/inflammation: Nope

Skin issues (itching, "bugs crawling under skin" feeling, eczema, psoriasis): Nope

Overall "traveling" random muscle aches & pains: Nope
Overall weakness: Yeaaa

Feeling like you're about to faint: Yes

Inner feeling of shakiness/giddiness: Yes

Feeling as though a weight is being pressed down on your head: Yes

Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations: No

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot): Yes

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold): Yes



Psychological Symptoms



Chronic worrying: Yes

Feeling like you're going to go crazy: Yes

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered": Yes

Chronic fatigue: Yes

Overall feeling of being "off": Yes

Feeling clumsy: Yes

Depression - no longer interested in hobbies, getting out of the house, etc.: Yes

Irritable / impatient: Yes

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world): Yes, sometimes

Afraid to be alone / clingy: Yes

Agoraphobia or other phobias: Not really but busy places cause me to panic

OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove): Sometimes

Insomnia: Yes


Finally, how old are you? 28

How old do you feel?: like 40 lol



Comments:

Still battling health anxiety, its tough but I'm trying to take one day at a time... :(

[GadGirl]

Headaches/migraines: Yes - headaches

Vision disturbances: Yes

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc.): no

Toothaches: no

Gum issues (nerve pain, bleeding): no

Facial numbness: Yes

Adult acne: yes only on back

Difficulty swallowing: yes

Ringing in ears/pain: yes

TMJ: No

Neck & shoulder stiffness/tension: Yes

Numbness in left arm/right arm/both: Yes -left hand side

Numbness in hands (all over/mostly middle fingers): Yes - seems to only be middle finger

Hands trembling: Yes

Fingernail issues (splitting/cracking, ridges): Yes

Chest discomfort (sharp pain, dull ache, pressure, inability to take deep breath): Yes

Heart - racing, palpitations, skipped beats/hard thumps: Yes - all of the above

Back pain (upper. middle, lower): Yes - upper

Rib pain (left/right/both sides): no

Breast discomfort (pain, sensitivity, burning sensations): Yes pain

Underarm issues (lumps, sensitivity): no

Stomach issues (sharp pain, dull ache, indigestion, acid reflux, gas, nausea): Yes acid, nausea

Abdominal issues (pain - left side, right side, middle, random): Yes - random

Intestinal issues (diarrhea, constipation, flat stools, consistently discolored stools, appearance of blood): Yes - constipation

Frequent urination: Yes

Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs": Yes to all
Feet/toes - numbness, pain: Yes - numbness

Joint pain/stiffness/inflammation: Yes - stiffness

Skin issues (itching, "bugs crawling under skin" feeling, eczema, psoriasis): no

Overall "traveling" random muscle aches & pains: Yes

Overall weakness: Yes

Feeling like you're about to faint: Yes

Inner feeling of shakiness/giddiness: Yes

Feeling as though a weight is being pressed down on your head: Yes

Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations: Yes

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot): Yes

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold): no



Psychological Symptoms



Chronic worrying: Yes

Feeling like you're going to go crazy: Yes

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered": Yes

Chronic fatigue: Yes

Overall feeling of being "off": Yes

Feeling clumsy: Yes

Depression - no longer interested in hobbies, getting out of the house, etc.: sometimes
Irritable / impatient: Occasionally

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world): Yes, sometimes

Afraid to be alone / clingy: afraid of being alone

Agoraphobia or other phobias: no

OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove): Yes

Insomnia: sometimes


Finally, how old are you? 25

How old do you feel?: Mentally, 35. Physically, 50.

[emily67]

providing i'm not too late:

Physical Symptoms

Headaches/migraines: the ocasional headache

Vision disturbances-yes

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc)- no

toothaches: no

gum issues: no

facial numbness: yes

Adult acne: no

difficulty swallowing: yep!. huge issue for me if my anxiety is bad

ringing in ears: yes. very frequently

TMJ: no

kneck and shoulder stiffness: oh yes. usually shoulders

numbness in arms: sometimes. (and in legs also)

numbness in hands: yes

hands trembling: yes

fingernail issues: no

chest pain: sometimes sharp pain, difficult taking breaths

Heart - racing, palpitations, skipped beats/hard thumps: heart racing and thumps

back pain: yeah. middle sometimes

rib pain: no

Breast discomfort: yes deffenetly the burning sensations

underarm issues: no

stomach: sharp pain, acid reflux

Abdominal issues: no

Intestinal issues: no

Frequent urination: no

Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs": all of the above

feet and toes: numbness

jointpain: yes

skin issues: yep, bugs crawling on the skin is a big issue for me

overall traveling muscle aches and pains: yes

overall weakness: yes

feeling like you're about to faint: yes, but more often than not it's feeling like i'm going to die

inner feeling of shakyness: yes

feeling like a weight is being pressed down on your head: no

Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations: yep. arms, legs, face, sometimes head and eyes

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot): only when things are extremely bad

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold): see above

Psychological Symptoms

Chronic worrying: yes

feeling like you're going to go crazy: yes

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered": yes. my fears about sudden death and the end of the world fit that one

Chronic fatigue: yes

overall feeling of being off: yes

feeling clumsy: yes

depression: yep, that's a big issue for me, but also links in with my bipolar

Irritable / impatient: it's a psymptom of my bipolar, yes

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world): all of the above

Afraid to be alone / clingy: tough one, because in the real face to face world, i can't stand to be around anyone. but talking to someone online.. i guess i'm a little like that

Agoraphobia or other phobias: yep, agoraphobia. also fear of heights, insects, social phobia

OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove): not officially diagnosed with OCD, but i do find myself doing a lot of that recently

Insomnia: yes

Finally, how old are you?

25

How old do you feel?: 80/90. feel that i've all ready been through so much and my life is pretty much over

[hheavenlyangel]

Physical Symptoms



Headaches/migraines: Yes - headaches

Vision disturbances: No

Sinus issues (congestion, runny nose, etc.): Yes

Toothaches: no

Gum issues (nerve pain, bleeding): no

Facial numbness: Yes, left side nose, cheek.

Adult acne: No

Difficulty swallowing: No

Ringing in ears/pain: Yes

TMJ: No

Neck & shoulder stiffness/tension: Yes

Numbness in left arm/right arm/both: Yes - both

Numbness in hands (all over/mostly middle fingers): Yes
Hands trembling: no

Fingernail issues (splitting/cracking, ridges): Yes

Chest discomfort (sharp pain, dull ache, pressure, inability to take deep breath): No

Heart - racing, palpitations, skipped beats/hard thumps: Yes

Back pain (upper. middle, lower): Yes

Rib pain (left/right/both sides): Yes

Breast discomfort (pain, sensitivity, burning sensations): Yes

Underarm issues (lumps, sensitivity): no

Stomach issues (sharp pain, dull ache, indigestion, acid reflux, gas, nausea): Yes acid reflux, nausea

Abdominal issues (pain - left side, right side, middle, random): no

Intestinal issues (diarrhea, constipation, flat stools, consistently discolored stools, appearance of blood): Yes

Frequent urination: Yes

Legs - muscular weakness, frequent twitching, "jelly legs": Yes all

Feet/toes - numbness, pain: No

Joint pain/stiffness/inflammation: Yes

Skin issues (itching, "bugs crawling under skin" feeling, eczema, psoriasis): Yes

Overall "traveling" random muscle aches & pains: Yes

Overall weakness: Yes

Feeling like you're about to faint: Yes

Inner feeling of shakiness/giddiness: Yes

Feeling as though a weight is being pressed down on your head: Yes

Random body parts feeling heated/burning sensations: Yes

Feeling warm/hot all over (when it isn't warm/hot): Yes

Feeling chilled (when it isn't cold): yes



Psychological Symptoms



Chronic worrying: Yes

Feeling like you're going to go crazy: Yes

Sense of impending doom / "days are numbered": Yes

Chronic fatigue: Yes

Overall feeling of being "off": Yes

Feeling clumsy: Yes

Depression - no longer interested in hobbies, getting out of the house, etc.: Yes

Irritable / impatient: Yes

Self-absorption (needing to be alone / difficulty feeling affection for others / shying away from the outside world): Yes

Afraid to be alone / clingy: some days

Agoraphobia or other phobias: Yes
OCD (checking & rechecking locked doors, iron, stove): Yes

Insomnia: Average 5 hours sleep a night

Finally, how old are you? 43

How old do you feel?: 80



Comments:

I have had this all my life so have resigned myself to the fact that no matter how much medication I take, Im never going to be 100% fully normal. I often wonder what It would be like to just book myself into an institution and just sleep my life away, it sounds so appealing to me.

I know my triggers and I know that when I get less than 5 hours sleep It triggers my anxiety. I am a caring and nurturing person and take things to heart... like really - to heart. I get hurt easily and would do anything for those I love without any care for myself. If I can help I will. The older I get the easier it is for me to keep my Panic attacks in check but I do have bad days where no matter what my brain will not rationalize a thought or sensation. Once I have had a sleep Im ok and I feel very embarrassed if I have sought help from those I trust. I sometimes feel as though I have regressed mentally when I am in the Panic zone. I manage to hold down a full time job and there are not many people who know I have all the mental issues I have. Its like I live one life on the inside and another on the outside. That's my daily life.....