i've always dealt with anxiety and depression, but in the last two months it's spiraled out of control. it's morphed into something new and it's terrifying.

i don't know how to deal with these symptoms on top of everything else, and i'm scared every time i think about my future. i wish i could go back in time and stop whatever caused this.

"what if things get worse in the following weeks?"

"where will you be on your little brothers birthday?"

"what about starting university?"

i pray that this is all temporary and i'll be me again soon. sure, i'll have the anxiety and occasional depression, but at least i won't feel anything. i can't get rid of these thoughts. i'm trying to relax but it's hard. i don't want to do anything except sleep. i had to say this and get this off my chest.