Sorry guys im new so please excuse me if im posting in the wrong place.

Im changing meds at the moment from Citalopram to Fluoxotine.
I don't feel like me anymore (not even sure whats normal for me anymore tbh) I have struggled with intrusive thoughts for a while now but I'm only at the point of weaning myself off the citalopram and i feel as though i cant leave the house, my thoughts are so dark and its like a song stuck in my head constantly repeating over and over.
I have so many crisis numbers but I know i wouldnt follow through with any of the thoughts so i don't feel as though i should be calling them but its dragging me down.
I hide a lot of what i feel from friends and family because i dont want to hurt them with what i think and how i see myself.
I was wondering if anyone had any tips apart from living in a cave until my meds work

Sorry its a long post and again sorry if ive posted this in the wrong place.
Thanks
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