Terrified

[Seuria]

i am about to go away, we leave in less than a hour. i have taken the valium given me by the docs but i am scared witless. any quick fix suggestions please?

[nanny]

If i were you i would take another valium.

I'm on these and it is safe to take up to 25mg a day. so another one should do it.

only a suggestion.

[Seuria]

i have been tempted but i only have 3 tabs left and i think i would need 2 to come home again.

i wonder if i could break one in 2

[lesleya]

If you need it....break one in half seuria, wont do any harm. Remember you'll be great once you get there. Keep that thought. You can do it...I know you can.
Have a great time
Love Lelseya
xxx

[Seuria]

i failed, i couldnt do it. luckily we managed to get most of our money back. were going to spend some times just us and see if i can start at the beginning again. all those little steps

[nanny]

Oh seuria does that mean you haven't gone anywhere?

oh what a let down for you, but you tried didn't you. Please don't think of yourself as a failure sweetheart, it sounds as though you done your best.

Thats no consolation i know, even getting most of your money back doesn't help the way you feel right now does it.

Hope the person you were going with was supportive, it sounds as though you need a lot of that at the minute.

We are all here for you. i'm so so sorry.

[purplehaze]

I think the positive thing is you tried and thats what matters most. I know exactly what its like to make plans and then cancel at the last moment. Even simple thongs like going to the shops can be a massive hurdle. I was heading to home base DIY store and I was within touching distence of it, when I told my brother who was driving to turn back, but he said "look we are just here" I closed my eyes and told him to go for it.

I thought I was going to freak out-die..but when I got there I calmed down and started to enjoy being there....
Just keep chipping away at the issue...Sometimes you may not make it and sometimes you will.

But keep positive and well done just for getting this far

[Seuria]

i am alot calmer today, my husband has been terrific. i also discovered i have come on for the first time in ages, i am thinking this may have contributed for yesterday. am going to see my therapist when he gets back from his hols and see what we can do. i not annoyed at missing the holiday i am still getting some quality time with my husband. thanks for all the support, i think i will be staying around here for a while now.

[CarpeDiem]

Hi Seuria

I'm so glad you are still having a good time even though you missed the holiday; good for you! Just shows you when you read your posts in order how your thought processes work - It felt like a huge failure not to go at first but now you see the positives in getting to spend time with hubby & going to the docs - Thats what I call progress!
CarpeDiem
xxxxxx