I was on citalopram for years saved my life and not been on them a month now and doc I have to start venlflexine but am emetophobic (fear of vomiting ) and am so so scared to start the venlflexine with over thinking will make me sick etc.. but my anxiety is awful right now am at the sucidal part I just wanna die like now 😭😭 I cant eat cos my throat and stomach so tight I just feel like giving up itís not dare suffering like this then I sit and get depressed and mad at myself for not taking the tablet and not eating itís one big circle 😭😭 how can I get through this and just take the venlflexine

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