I was meant to be going to a pub tonight for my boyfriend's friends birthday but it involved going on a 45 minute tube journey and I couldn't face it. He has been really nice about it and we are now staying in with a video and Chinese - I just feel like a failure though and as I have been off work for two weeks I also feel really isolated from all my friends who are out doing normal weekend things...I know I need to take things one step at a time but I feel so frustrated at myself.