I've been a bit stressed at the moment and quite busy, and although was told by a doctor my lump on the back of my neck is nothing to worry about (apparently its just a tendon or something), I still worry I'll be diagnosed with lymphoma and am convinced I'm going to die. I just had a moment to myself to relax on the bus, closed my eyes and tried to do some breathing exercises, and out of nowhere I felt really light, almost like I was floating, and had this weird intrusive image of my body ascending to heaven or something like that?! I'm so worried this is a sign I'm about to die...although obviously it's more likely that weird intrusive thoughts and images happen based on our deepest worry, which for me is dying. The OCD side of me can't stop worrying that is a sign I'll die - has anyone else ever had these weird kind of feelings or scenarios play out in their mind?!
I even felt like as I was passing by things like trees my mind was just saying goodbye to everything and seeing how I would react. I almost feel like it's my OCD daring me to think these thoughts and I just need to laugh it off and move on...it's just so easy to be sucked into constant doubt from these kind of thoughts that they are right and I'm actually going to die soon
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