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    Re: As good as it gets .

    You made the right decisions, Buster. If he needed the rope that bad, he wouldn't have left it there that long; that's just an excuse on his part. Have you talked to you brother about talking to someone?
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    Re: As good as it gets .

    Quote Originally Posted by Buster70 View Post
    Fish I think there are a lot of people whoíve had similar lives we just donít talk about it because of the stigma attached to mental illness, as much as Iíd like to get outside help I know he wouldnít go ahead with it heís not keen on people in general, Iíve been in contact with him today because of me collecting the ashes and dealing with the solicitor, I be tried to judge his mood which seemed ok , then this evening he rang pretty annoyed that Iíd taken the rope away , I explained a why id done it and although I did ask him straight if he felt like ending his life he seemed more concerned that it was expensive rope and he wanted it back , he said heíd had it in the attic for a long time but it didnít explain why heíd recently set it up , there were also blocks of wood in the bathroom to stand on .
    I know from experience and have been told by my therapist that you canít watch them all the time if someone want to do it they will , Ive told him he can come to us anytime or I will go to him if he needs me , all this worrying is making me ill .
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    This is a tough one Buster and hardly surprising its making you ill. You're trying to keep your family functioning while simultaneously shepherding your brother. I'm sure he wanted you to find that rope otherwise he would have concealed it. But that's putting a huge burden of responsibility on your shoulders and it seems again that your family are looking to you to solve all these dilemmas. That's why I suggested professional help for your brother, before you end up needing it yourself. I wish I had more answers for you buddy. In my thoughts.
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    Re: As good as it gets .

    Damned if I do damned if I don’t , I’m starting to believe in god and she’s f**king well punishing me for something, with anxiety we always try to be in control but life is uncontrollable , might as well just give up trying and let what will happen happen .

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    Re: As good as it gets .

    Life is uncontrollable. You do what you can to play it safe and control what you can, and the rest is up to whatever higher power or life force you believe in.

    grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
    courage to change the things I can,
    and wisdom to know the difference.
    That's all we can do in life. You are not responsible for your brother. You need to encourage him to get professional help. It's okay to ask for help when we need it. None of us are superheroes that can solve everything.
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    Re: As good as it gets .

    AV I like that quote I think that’s part of my problem not knowing the difference between what I can and can’t control , my mums house is now completely empty and my brother has moved to the new house , it’s very hard to judge how he’s feeling most of what we do is small talk .
    I feel like I’m on a muddy cliff top slipping towards the edge and i can’t get a grip , lack of sleep is making me paranoid I imagine things are going on behind my back that will come to light and push me over the edge , I wake from what little sleep I get shaking with that buzzing electric feeling going through my body ( it’s happening as I write this ) .
    My daughter starts her ms treatment on Monday , im taking her , she’s also told us she’s moving away with her new boyfriend at the end of November , he’s starting a new job in the countryside and theyve already found a place to live , we haven’t met him and they’ve only been together two months , she told him from the start about her condition which he accepts , she seems so happy so I’m happy for her but at the same time sad she’s going .
    Partner seems to want some space and time alone , she’s still not recovered from the food poisoning, this makes me paranoid that she doesn’t want to be with me , I really don’t like being alone right now it gives me too much time to think but being home is crowding her .
    Im just about keeping it together but I know it’s going to come crashing down soon .
    Thanks for giving somewhere to vent . X

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