Re: As good as it gets .
Hi Buster. I'm really sorry you're feeling this way mate. I think you've got a combination of factors coming together to make your situation feel pretty dire. That's stating the obvious I know. If we think along the lines of January being a pretty grim month even when you take the rest of it away. But if you add on the pandemic, losing your Mum and your daughter moving out, that's a lot to be dealing with. And lockdown magnifies the feeling of isolation, at least you won't be alone in that.
I think with your partner, a good chunk of what you're hearing is down to how she's feeling. And with GPs still hiding, it can make you feel as though you're in this alone. I get that often with Mrs F, in constant pain with the crohns and there's only so many times you can express sympathy before you start feeling helpless. It sounds like she needs ABs, has the doctor even spoken to her? The Valentines Day question, it might feel important to her. So maybe humour her and chat about having a nice meal together? Home cooked food or maybe a nice takeaway?
That walking the dogs, I should maybe jump in the car and drive up to you with Lexie in tow. We could walk our dogs and be miserable together. Though for me I've patched things up with my daughter, she wasn't talking to me for a good while. But she now has a room rented with en suite bathroom. Right now though, try to focus on vaccines coming up, the spring not all that far away, and maybe planning a trip to the coast? Hang in there mate and keep posting here if it helps.
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