Hi Buster. I think if we look at the events in your life this year. A pandemic like none since the Spanish flu of 1918/19/20, the loss of your dear Mum, your daughter diagnosed with MS and now moved away, your brother hinting at harming himself.

Is it really any wonder you're feeling low? That would flatten some of the strongest of people and yet as Carnation said, you are still standing. I have total admiration for you mate and that's not me trying to make you feel better. I'm wondering if that's why family don't ask after you, because you just get on with it. You wouldn't be the first unsung hero.

But at the same time, you're human and we all need someone to lean on. Maybe if you told your partner what you've told us here? And if she's still not listening, then you have us. People tapping away at keyboards but real people nonetheless. Hang in there buddy, 2021 can't possibly be any worse.