My dog walks are a bit of s push me pull me affair , one dog is three one is thirteen their names are oi come on and oi slow down , or so you’d think , trudging through mud and the wind in your face picking up dog muck it’s just bliss and with anxiety crushing the breath out of me you could ask are you mad but then I know the answer to that question , even before the anxiety I do remember mates saying” you’re not right in the head “ I must admit some of my great drunken ideas were not very safe or legal .
Today was another tough one , partner is in constant pain 24/7 the doc thinks her knee may be infected arthritis so she may have to go into hospital for intravenous antibiotics.
Did the school run today , told the kids we could go to school or carry on to the sea side instead , they were up for it and bitterly disappointed when we didn’t , forgot to give granddaughter her money so had to go back into school , went to the wrong class whooops not good these days school are like fortresses , picked up lado after nursery and took him to the park , how we laughed as I left him stuck in swing and said I was going home without him then got him out and chased him round being a zombie , he needs to learn how to deal with zombies just incase , nipped off and did a deal with chap to make some money , then back to school for the last pick up . All done while in terrible pain from tension and all done while super duper anxious fearing I may drop dead for reasons unknown .
Couldnt relax this evening so I took the dog ( just the young un) out for a walk round the dark streets , my biggest fear by then wasn’t dropping dead or being stabbed by a gang of youngsters or even being mugged , my fear was that I might be arrested by the fashion police or sectioned for what I was wearing , muddy boots , bright tartan pj bottoms , lumberjack shirt and hat , in the headlights I may have looked a tad odd but I’m big enough and ugly enough to not care and the dog didn’t seem to mind although she did walk well infront .
those words “ you’re not right in the head “ do seem to echo echo through my life .
Take care .