Quote Originally Posted by rainbow View Post
I think the only choice I have is to go to my gp and ask for a colonoscopy
If you're due for one then fine but still, that's just paid reassurance and as Clarity said, it won't last long and/or you'll jump to something else. This has been an issue for 10+ years. If something were seriously amiss, you would have known long before now.

No, the real issue is in your mind. That's what really needs to be addressed. Your thinking patterns are heavily skewed and negative and you have to take action in real life with professional help IMO. I gave you a perfectly reasonable way to address this but from what I've read of your post history, I don't feel you're in a place mentally to help yourself :(

Good luck and as always...

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