Hi all.
This is my second post in a matter of weeks but I’m back to square one and just need to get things off my cheat and hear from anyone going through similar dificulties.
This year it seems my anxiety has done it’s best to spoil anything that’s meant to be fun, relaxing and enjoyable. In June my wife and I went to the lakes for a weeks holiday ( we can’t go abroad in fear my anxiety rears is disgusting ugly head and i’m ill when we’re away) but we only lasted one night before my wife had to drive us home because I had a full on anxiety meltdown on the first day. My anxiety lasted for the rest of the week and completely ruined our time off together. I did recover and in the months since things have been great until this week when we’re off work and lo and behold my anxiety is back!!! I’ve managed to keep it hidden unil this evening when were were getting ready to go out for dinner and I had to come clean to my wife after she had done her hair and makeup. We’ve had to cancel going out which I feel very guilty and selfish about because my wife doesn’t deserve any of this and she was looking forward to going out. She is however very understanding and I don’t know where I’d be without her! I just feel like anytime where I’m meant to be enjoying things my anxiety does its best to ruin things and it is beginning to really get me down.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.