Hi all, don't know if I am in the right place but really struggling at the moment. July last year after almost 6 and a half years together, my girlfriend finished with me. I wasn't ready to move on but after a while, it was obvious in a way that there was no chance of us getting back together so I nearly ended up asking somebody out but realised I was kidding myself that it wasn't too soon, I wasn't ready, still aren't. So I never did get with anyone. I struggle to sleep, most nights I am in tears. I volunteer in a charity shop on Saturdays and this time I ended up getting upset. Luckily there were no customers at the time (I work on the till) and the other staff were having a cig out the back so nobody saw me and I composed myself. I miss my ex (though still speak to her but thinking maybe it's time to cut contact because I can't take all this.), her family - they used to say I was family. I miss walking with my ex and her dog. I have a dog now, a small Jack Russell. My mum and brother were secretly planning to take me in his car to get a dog for my birthday as they thought a dog would cheer me up (they could see the smiling/laughing was a mask). But unknown to them, I'd made arrangements to get a dog but they gave me the money back. He's great, I've had him almost two months now and I love him. Anyway in 2016 my stepdad died near Christmas so it's a sad time anyway, but also as I used to divide time between my family and ex at Christmas, it also brings back memories. People keep telling me to get dating again (even trying to set me up) but my heart's not in it. I still love my ex. I don't know what to do, I thought I would be over my ex by now but I'm not. I still care about her a lot.
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