Re: Trying to stop myself....
Hi Amanda,
Don't forget that even though you're staring into that hideous chasm of anxiety again, you overcame it once! You can do it again, even if you teeter a bit. You now know that you can have good times and that counts for so much.
I think perhaps continually building on the positives could help. Indulge in more activities that give you a mental as well as physical boost (as you said, you swam 40 lengths! That's brilliant! Your body must be in good shape). Keep your mind as busy as possible so it doesn't get too much chance to stray into the pool of negativity. This is something I find hard, but if you can manage it you then look back and think, "hey, I didn't think about my health/anxiety/bodily sensations for x amount of time".
Sometimes, when I'm alone and feeling anxious or low or panicky, I try this. I go round the room, grinning as widely as possible at every inanimate object. I'm usually laughing by the second object and it helps to lighten the mood!
Be kind to yourself, steer your thoughts to the positives but don't beat yourself up if you have a bad day.
Good luck sweetie
Anna. x
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