Re: Feeling really low and empty
Hi Verity, it is so disheartening when anxiety jumps on us and compromises plans or objectives in life. In many ways we are in thrall to it's influence, I personally believe my own life would have taken a different course without anxiety and I'm sure you can identify with that.
Please don't feel like you have failed with the puppy, easy for me to say I know. At least he has been re-homed but I understand how this might be felt as a rehearsal for having a baby. I became a father way back in 1999, it was tough I will say but the rewards are huge. Do you have support in your immediate and extended family? This would be helpful for you if you decided to start a family, not to mention awareness and understanding of your anxiety from those people. I think you would surprise yourself.
Lastly, if you didn't take the plunge of becoming a parent then this wouldn't define you because many couples choose not to have children for many reasons. You would not be a failure by any means, I hope you can take heart from that. Look after yourself.
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'It was a wedding ring, destined to be found in a cheap hotel, lost in a kitchen sink, or thrown in a wishing well' - Marillion, Clutching at Straws, 1987