Brain tumor
Pancreatic cancer
Melanoma (multiple times)
Breast cancer (current obsession)
Bone cancer
Bowel cancer
Liver cancer
Pretty much any cancer you can think of ...
Brain tumor
Pancreatic cancer
Melanoma (multiple times)
Breast cancer (current obsession)
Bone cancer
Bowel cancer
Liver cancer
Pretty much any cancer you can think of ...
HIV
Brain tumour
Breast cancer
Lymphoma
Skin cancer (multiple worries and current obsession)
Bone tumour
MS
Mouth cancer
Bowel cancer
Colon Cancer
Oral Cancer
Lymphoma x 10
Necrotizing fasciitis
Liver cancer
Skin cancer x 10
HIV
These are the ones I was 100% i had. No doubt. The HIV one sent me into what i now see as a nervous breakdown.
There have been about 10-20 diseases etc that i was anxious over, without the 100% certainty. More like 50-75%
Lymphoma
Nodualr skin cancer
Inflammatory breast cancer
HPV
Lyme disease
Brain tumour (this was a massive one) had chronic headache for 18 months!
Currently MS which has been going on for two years along side brain tumour.
My symptoms kind of stuck with me tingling, tinnitus, floaters I feel like I just go from illness to illness trying to find the right one to fit the symptoms! I read that most symptoms go away when worrying about illness and then new ones will come and it will something else. Mine just stay around the same which scares the hell out of me cuz I just think it must be something I just havnt found what!
Lymphoma
Brain tumour (current worry but Drs think its Meinere's Disease instead)
Melanoma (current worry)
Bowel cancer
Vulva cancer (psoriasis patch popped up down there and me being me, I refused to believe it was just psoriasis - which I already had elsewhere)
MS
Oral cancer
C-PTSD (Complex Trauma), OCD, Panic Disorder, GAD
"Save your sympathy for someone else. I don't need it or want it. What you call a panic attack is merely a few normal chemicals that are temporarily out of place in my brain. It is of no significance whatsoever to me!"
"Recovery always lies ahead - however painful the moment"
"Recovery lies in the places and experiences you avoid"
Dr Claire Weekes.
So my list of non-diseases is the usual one - breast cancer, bowel cancer, melanoma, lymphoma, lung cancer etc. - but this has reminded me of a couple of the ridiculous childhood freakouts I had:
aged 7-8: spontaneous human combustion (no, seriously), after a fire safety class at school
aged 9: rabies, after a minor dog bite, despite living in a rabies-free country
aged 15: pregnancy, despite being a virgin, after some mild clothes-on 'petting' with my then-boyfriend (not an illness as such, but you know what I mean)
I mean, I literally spent a year worrying about CATCHING ON FIRE, which is both sad and hilarious.
Few main ones for me:
1. Heart attack (indigestion)
2. Heart failure (nothing)
3. HIV, this used to be a big one for me (nothing)
4. Testicular cancer (nothing)
5. Leukemia (slight bruise on leg)
6. Brain tumours, this is what i'm going through at the moment because I kept having numbness in my left fingers but realised today it was from resting my head on my hand for hours on end whilst on the laptop. Face palm moment.
bone cancer
heart attacks
skin failure
kidney cancer
testicular cancer again (up to 30 times at least)
Brain Tumor (Stress in my personal life causes ice-pike headaches for weeks and mix with very low iron levels made me very dizzy)
Sinus Cancer (I have chronic sinus issues and need meds for that year round! It can be hard but I get by!)
Bowel Cancer (Ibs and a few different other issues that have mainly been treated!)
Heart issues (Anxiety and muscle issues)
Lymphoma (Oh the mind works over drive)
Skin Cancer (This was caused by my Mam but I got over it within a day! Which is strange for me!)
Ovary Cancer (I have a condition that causes lots of cysts to the point where they don't bother removing them and I'm learning to live with them!)
(Current and only thoughts)
Some strange tumor (sarcoma or something bad) because of a lump currently at the back of my head! So only down to one worry! Which is good for me!
I know it's mad saying this when I listed all these things above and probs have left out! Embarrassing I know
Pretty much every type of cancer ever. Soon as I get over the fear of one I begin thinking I have another type, although I manage it pretty effectively through exercise and meditation.
I used to have anxiety about my heart, but I managed to completely get over that. Then after about a year of barely having any anxiety at all I got glandular fever, and the symptoms unfolded in a way that’s pretty unusual for GF but textbook for lymphoma (single large, painless lump in armpit, loss of appetite and night sweats, but no other symptoms of being unwell). Even the doctor thought I had lymphoma. Ever since then my anxiety has revolved solely around cancer, although it is getting better.
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