My long distance boyfriend is moving closer to where I live and now every time I see him or talk to him or call with him, I get a sudden wave of stress. I'm irritable to no end, I've never been in a romantic relationship before because I like to keep everyone at a distance. Now this actual distance between us is merging and I feel very scared.

I feel like I have this wall up I just want to knock down but I can't. As I go online I see all of these articles saying this anger I have might be because I want to break up with him. I know I don't but I also have ROCD and relationship anxiety, I'm seeing a psychiatrist on Monday but I am going to see my boyfriend this weekend and I'm scared I'll be irritable the whole time and ruin his time there. He starts to talk to me and my brain just freaks out and gets all tense.

I don't know what to do. I'm just scared I'll be with him and feel this anger and irritability that I don't want.