Mornings !!!!!!!

[TRISTAN]

Been suffering for last 6 years , not all been bad but after a brake down in March 2017 I ended up in mental hospital for 3 weeks and lost my job due to I’ll health

Been at mums for 10 weeks , I do see kids every day but it’s getting harder to put on that front and just feel run down and scared most of my day

Just started sertraline 3 days ago and come of venaflaxine I also take a shed load of add ons

Quetiapine, mirtazapine, lorazepam, lyrica and zoppyclone for sleep

[BlueIris]

Wow, that's practically a whole pharmacy!

I do get what it's like to feel terrified all the time, and being out of work probably isn't helping as it gives you more time to stew. Would doing a little volunteer work help, maybe - just a few hours a week somewhere supportive?

[TRISTAN]

Yeah looking into that now but feel so shit physically with side effects and anxiety it’s going to be hard

[BlueIris]

I really do empathise - I know how exhausting severe anxiety can be, not to mention meds. I stepped up my citalopram this week and I had to take an afternoon off work because I felt completely out of it.

Something to consider for when you're a little more stable, maybe. I'm biased because I'm a crazy cat lady, but animals don't judge you when you're panicking.

[TRISTAN]

Here it comes again , scared , can’t cope , low , worried, no control

Need help !!!!!!!!!

[BlueIris]

Try to breathe through it - maybe put the radio or TV on?

[TRISTAN]

Got tv on but might as well be off , can’t take another day like this it’s all too much

[BlueIris]

Do you have a crisis line you can call?

[TRISTAN]

Yeah I do

[BlueIris]

Might be worth giving them a ring if you're really suffering.