HI everyone
Recently I've lost control over my anxiety again and for the past 2 months I developed severe paranoia from work stress.
I was on a fixed term contract with the promise of being made permanent however 2 months before the end of the contract was told by the FD they can't renew the contract as they can't let temporary staff work for more than a year.
This left me with very limited time to find a new job (in the end I was successful)
During that time I had severe paranoia due to my toxic work place. I constantly worried about being gossiped about, stressed when they asked me to train my replacement. I non stop worried and imagined everyone hates me at work, especially people in my own team.
This paranoia has extended to medical care. I have zero confidence in anything my GP tells me, I always google to check if they are correct or not. I've learned in the past that doctors LIE, especially when it come to post-surgery nerve damage/chronic pain so I lost all confidence in them.
Also whenever I date a new bloke I constantly worry he is trying to use me and/or will ghost me. Makes trusting others very hard.
I also suffer from vulvodynia which is poorly treated so that doesn't help.
Has anyone else discovered this new symptom of anxiety?
Sorry for the long post