Ugh I just don't know what to do.
Me and my partner have had to move back to my parents house whilst our house we're buying goes through (they live about an hour away from us) and since moving back I've literally had the worst anxiety since I was a teenager.
Just to add a bit of a back story, I struggle to be in this town because it was where I was sexually abused and everytime I come back to visit it just brings back so many bad memories, thoughts and feelings. This time it's a lot worse because it's been 2 solid weeks (so far) of being here. I'm struggling to leave the house as i'm just too frightened and feel like i'm going to just have a complete melt down as soon as I step outside. I've been a pretty suicidal and hopeless and just think i'm in the worst place. I feel like everytime I go outside I can't breathe properly and that everything is spinning around me and I just want to sit down and cry and scream.
I haven't been to work for most of the week because I just want to hide in the bedroom and pretend I dont exist. This is only accompanied by my parents calling me out on me being sad/miserable and keep saying to me 'you have nothing to be sad about' etc.
Really struggling at the moment :(
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