Question I Should know the answer to

[Lqriggs]

Apologies i deleted the as i felt it was too much of a ramble.

And wanted to explain my main fear more to the point.... that if I had brain mets I'd not be getting on with everyday life... to put my mind at rest to some degree.

[Hypo84]

Have you survived doctors appointment?

[Lqriggs]

Not yet... going tomorrow - thanks for the follow up.... i'm just so scared at the moment.... i think the worst is that anxiety is probably causing most of my issues but cant help but assume its the worst!

Cant stop googling.... survival rates... clinical trials etc... I've read all about immunotherapy - feel like im gonna walk in tomorrow and say "right I want dual immunotherapy opvido and ippi please...."

Reading survivor stories.... half of them talk about symptoms I have..

Its all just a massive mindf*** and its taking its toll

Only good thing is I think I have (once again) come to terms with death - so if it is waiting for me I'll fight but wont let it break my spirit...

Even writing this feels ridiculous but just cant turn off that HA part of my brain

[Hypo84]

Your biggest issue is that it won't stop there. Tomorrow, when you likely hear that your mole is normal you will be fine for a short period of time and then you will be dying from another disease.

Instead of reading cancer stories, read something fun, and stop googling completely.

[RadioGaGa]

Well you won't be getting either of those 'monoclonal antibodies' from your GP as they're started in hospital under specialist supervision only.

This is a very silly, irrational fear you have. If I were you, I'd let the GP have a quick look at your moles, then move on to your anxiety.

Told ya so gang on standby

[Lqriggs]

Ok so on the melanoma thing.... you are free to drop an "i told you so"...

Theres still a slight concern with me about the sinusy... burping... difficulty swallowing symptoms but i'm still on the ledge with that one...

If someone wouldn't mind telling me that eosophageal cancer isnt gonna get me when im "only" 32 that would be great

Thanks again everyone don't know what i'd do without this site.... it might bot convince me during the rough times but im almost certain it stops me having full blown panic attacks

[RadioGaGa]

https://tse1.mm.bing.net/th?id=OGC.7...NMeR8wzUmC1jFA

[KK77]

Thank you for alerting the TYS Gang, RG