Re: I'm falling and I can't stop - feeling so scared now :-(
You've given yourself excellent advice already, but be prepared for a difficult and bumpy ride. Following what you've written is the challenge you face. You will need every ounce of determination you have because unpicking years of bad habits and compulsions isn't going to be quick and easy.
That being said, I think a person needs to reach a point where they have had enough of being controlled and driven by their anxiety. Realising that seeking reassurance has no end and no amount is ever enough. That it's a mug's game. That dying every day can never be better than the illness we fear we might have. Than the end itself.
You have made a start. Don't look back in fear. Focus on your way forward - and good luck
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Never Surrender, Comrade