Phil, listen, it will make no difference
where you describe your fears and
how often you describe them - there is no magic fairy out there who is going to find words to sort this, no matter how many forums you post the same thing on.
.....if you truly care about wanting to sort this out then take action. Follow any of my links given for self-help, or any other suggestions made by others on your many other threads!
I'll be even more brutally honest here; I'm not convinced that your GP and psychi have been unwilling to help. I just have a gut feeling because of how your behaviour changes once you are challenged, and how you view others and their actions/words towards you.....things might have been tried and failed and they too have gone in circles as we do here. (Possibly the same also with the cbt therapist.) There is no magic answer on the forums, you have to TAKE ACTION YOURSELF.